Lou

Trapped in an alley, i couldnt run

Facing down a man with a cross and a gun

His face was blue

He said my name is Lou and it’s my sacred duty to kill you

 

His eyes twitched around, the gun fell to the ground

He threw the cross in the sewer

And before i could run he said

I’m a talker not a doer

 

Then his face turned bluer

As he fell to the sewer

He hit his head and was still

His dead eyes on the man he would kill

 

It started raining here where nobody had seen

No camera recording this thing from a dream

And i just wanted to go home

Roswell 45: Isabel and Alex

Days and weeks slouch by as February staggers into March and rags of dirty snow cling to the ground in the back yard by a copse of dead trees that once sheltered the last wolves.  Alex keeps trying to date Isabel and she keeps dismissing him as politely as she can.  She likes Alex, maybe because he is superficially like Max but she does not reciprocate his feelings for her however meager or fulsome.  She wonders if he is still not speaking to Liz but that isnt something one asks.

Liz told her that she thought Alex would keep quiet but she wasnt entirely sure.  So Isabel decides to dreamwalk into his mind to answer that question.

As Isabel tries to walk into Alex’s mind she crosses some threshold into his dreams, hers and his.  Dreams and visions that sail on feathery wings borne up from currents of seething things of the night, hot erotic fantasies come to life or dreams of blood and vengeance that only the wicked vessel of the heart may contain.

With a shock she sees Alex in bed without a stitch on.  He rolls over and says, Hi, Isabel.  How’s your sex life?

How’s my sex life?  She sputters angrily.  It’s fine.  How’s yours?  Go fuck yourself.

Dont be mean to me, he says, laughing.

He touches her hand and she gets in bed with him and he slowly undresses her and they do unspeakable things until she wakes with a start, bathed in night sweat.  Is this why she keeps pushing him away?

Of course it is, she says to herself.  She wasnt seeing into his mind.  She was seeing into hers.  And she is terrified.  For herself and all of them.

Lights of Hong Kong

I feel the press of my dead children crowding close to me

And with each morning passing there’s one less day to see

Carson sings Feliz Navidad that was his favorite song

And the only comfort left now is that i dont have long

 

Sparkie worried about me when i was alone

Took care of me when i was sick and her mommy was long gone

I’d play an old guitar and she’d sing an old folk song

As we looked away in wonder at the lights of old Hong Kong

 

It’s not that i’m going anywhere, they’re coming back for me

If this is it then i dont care it’s with them i should be

My heart is barely beating and my breath is almost gone

But thru the shrouded window creeps the glow of my last dawn

 

They should all still be here when i’m dead and in the ground

But somehow it happened the other way around

It’s my reward for the arrogance of living much too long

Before i sail away across the bay to the lights of old Hong Kong

Jisatsu

There’s no place quite as merry

As Greenwood cemetery

Grass green, sky blue

To rest in peace

Is all i want to do.

 

I looked at some graves today

Had no money but that’s okay

You can have one said the man

So i bought one on the easy payment plan

 

There’ll be no hunger, no strife

When i finally end my life

No sadness, no pain

Always sunshine, never see the rain

 

There’s a softly opening door

To things i’ve never seen before

Hear the sound of distant drums

I wont be here when the morning comes

 

 

 

The Promise

I got this from someone at a cat lover’s group on FB who got it from somewhere else.   The last three lines are mine, since i cant leave anything alone.  If you’re a hard core cat lover i think you’ll understand.

I will never leave you at a shelter

or let you starve

or let you hurt

or desert you when you get old

or leave you when you go blind

And if that time ever comes

I will be there to hold you

Even to the end of the world

Because i love you

And you are my child

 

Phenomenology is the Light of the World

Once I was drowning in life’s filthy sea

Then came that fateful day

When I picked up a book by Merleau-Ponty

I knew I’d finally found the way

 

Phenomenology showed me what it was giving

Answered all my questions why

Phenomenology gave me a reason for living

It even told me why I must die

 

Now Hector’s got a body and Hector’s got a brain

And a tunnel going right to Duquesne

He dont need no money and he dont need no girl

Cause he’s got the light of the world

 

Now Hector’s in his office, reading Merleau-Ponty

Writes descriptions all day

He dont care about us or what we see

Cause he knows he has the only way

 

Now Hector’s living in the tunnel, his wisdom grows

Sees his destiny unfurl

And as he lives from day to day he knows

Phenomenology’s the light of the world.

 

Shine on, light of the world

Goodnight everybody, everybody  everwhere

Amen

Allelujah   Bonnng!

 

 

 

 

Vampire in the Sun: A love poem

Author’s note: To any of my old friends at Xanga:  Sorry if you’ve seen this before.  It was in my novel Tenement because it fit.  It was originally a love poem for my wife on her birthday and it embarrassed her and her friends didnt like it because they thought it was too dark.  I never thought it was dark but rather someone who loves so much it hurts.  Anyway, here it is.  It was inspired in part by Leonard Cohen’s Coming Back to You.

My love has wings, gossamer things elusive as the dawn

In a place where the sun shines once a year for an instant and is gone

Your words of doubt shred me like staples from a gun

And a part of my heart disintegrates like a vampire in the sun

Behind these cold assassin’s eyes burns a wall of living flame

That rages even hotter at the whisper of your name

So lock this with your treasures behind some teakwood door

Or tear it up in pieces and throw it out the door

I looked for you in everyone but i’d never be untrue

So I’ll sit here quietly waiting and you do what you will do.